Six short months ago my life was completely different. I was a single person living alone. All I had to remember was to eat when hungry, drink when thirsty, sleep when tired and wash when I smell. As long as I remembered these simple things I would be alright. Life was simple back then I could do what I wanted when I wanted with no one to answer to. I was working and I saw the kids every other weekend. Yep my sanity was intact
on August the 28th 2016 I was just about to start the fortnightly fight with the children about taking them home to their mummy’s house, however on this occasion one of them told me “Please don’t take me back to that place I hate it”. After delving further, I decided I wasn’t going to return them due to safeguarding issues. I will go into that at a later time (it’s drafted but I want to make sure its fair and factual).
I have to remember silly things like Lexie wants extra cheese when we have spaghetti Bolognese, Kieran however hates cheese (unless it’s in string form). Kieran likes his eggs soft while Lexie would choose hard-boiled. Do not even think about putting ketchup on Kieran’s chips but I better not forget it on Lexie’s. However this said I make mistakes I lose my shit when they can’t find their school shoes. The kids are often instructed not to take off their jumpers at school because I have not ironed shirts. You better believe they both have polished shoes and clean teeth every morning though.
all this responsibility for little old me. I am often found rocking in a chair mumbling to myself as I question my sanity. I am someone who once had the nickname Vortex because of my brilliant ability to make things disappear and be forgotten about; Do I miss my old life, running round playing football climbing mountains and living off steak and beer, Nope. Do I have days where I wish I never took custody of the children? again nope. Never, not once have I regretted taking them. In fact my sister Tash at Mummy and moose (Great blog you should read it) once said I remind her of Forrest Gump because some days I literally sit waiting for them to come home from school.